15.1.13

Staying Confident Around Doubtful People

At work I am often delegated with write up assignments every time there is an event or an awarding occasion. 

I have to write at least 3 write ups in total for one assignment, and so someone* said, "with the amount of effort put in into each write up, at the end of the day, no one actually stops to read it."

The thought arises once again, and I am aware of each word that is coming out of that person's mouth. 

For that split second, I am aware because I am also able to relate; I once thought that way too. 

That sense of doubt was very familiar to me, and sorta' like a reminder to me- I was shaken up again to remember I write because I enjoy it. Not because I want others to read it, but because writing allows me to express myself in words.

My reply to that person was "Yes, I understand." I said it with a smile. 

A little agitated but what the heck, because I was in that shoes too. And I am thankful for being in that shoes cos' it took me that to learn how to appreciate my own work. 

For some time, I could not understand why no one appreciated my work alongside with thinking that I am no good in everything. And that fear almost stopped me in my life from doing anything I love, or thinking I am able to. I felt weak. 

Unable to write, draw, craft, etc. because the core was simple negativity- I thought i was not good enough. Little did I know was that I was hitting myself hard with the hammer- my phantom evil hands pushing myself down every time I rise up.

Like I said to my beloved yesterday when we were reminiscing back about college days, "I wish back then I knew what I knew now- I would have overcome many things in life." but better to experience than to wish, because I've already moved forward.

Anyways, back to the story; I write for Love. I write because it is Fun. 

And if everyone else continues to realizes this, doing it for themselves rather for others to notice- I am pretty sure everyone else would enjoy their work and soar high for their dreams to come true.

The only magic you and I need is just a little of self-believing. And stop doing it for others, do it for yourself.


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